My Top Ten Songs Right Now

  1. What About Us by Pink
  2. One More Light by Linkin Park
  3. Bailando by Enrique Iglesias
  4. I’m a Freak By Enrique Iglesias
  5. Heart Attack by Enrique Iglesias
  6. Blasphemy by Bring Me the Horizon
  7. Cake by the Ocean by DNCE
  8. Galway Girl by Ed Sheeran
  9. Wrong Side of Heaven by Five Finger Death Punch
  10. Lucy by Skillet
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5 Ways to Win My Heart

  1. Always be honest no matter what because I can’t stand being lied to.
  2. Never make promises you can’t keep, especially when it comes to the future.
  3. Give me the time and love that I deserve.
  4. Surprise me occasionally because although I always say I don’t like surprises, I secretly love them.
  5. Listen to me when I need to talk because it is really hard for me to open up to people and if you don’t listen than I will shut you out.

Inspiration

My mom has been a huge inspiration for me since I was a small child. She has always been there for me no matter what. As a child she always supported everything that was important to me. As I grew up with my own family she has always been there to help me out when I needed her. She is also one of my best friends. I have been so blessed to have such a great mom that is also my friend. I can’t imagine my life without her and I am so glad that she is in such good health.

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I Never Forgot

When I was 14 I was really struggling because my parents were separated and I was feeling completely lost! I was honestly borderline suicidal and I felt like my life had no purpose! My recent ex-boyfriend and friend told me that at the very least I was put on this earth to teach him how to love!  I have been through so many things in the course of my life but whenever I felt down I thought about his words!  I never totally believed them but I do know they gave me hope when I thought all hope was lost! 

10 Things That Make Me Really Happy

  1. My children are my world and regardless of the struggles we go through they are number one in my life.
  2. My mom is one of my best friends and she has always been there for me.
  3. Reading and writing has always made me feel extraordinarily happy.
  4. Learning helps me grow which makes me happy.
  5. Being a teacher makes me happy.
  6. Watching movies
  7. Regular Exercise
  8. Being independent
  9. Being fortunate enough to have a nice place to live
  10. My sweet puppy Lily

Tied Up

I have had a fantasy about being tied up for a few years now and last night my fantasy became a reality. I bought these restraints that go under the mattress a month or so back and the ex and I tried them out last night. It was a bit strange at first because my wrists and ankles were bound so I had very limited movement. I have to say that it was so hot when he started licking my pussy while I writhed on the bed barely able to move. He eventually stopped licking my pussy and then he brought his cock up to my mouth. It was awkward at first because I couldn’t use my hands but I eventually figured out how to make my mouth work to my advantage with no hands. He even entered me while I was still tied up. He eventually started untying me because he wanted to roll me over on to my stomach. The sex was so hot and I couldn’t believe how turned on I was. We eventually went from vaginal sex to anal sex. After an hour and a half of intense sex we were both exhausted. I honestly can’t believe that the sex between us keeps getting better and better. I never would have thought that our sex live would get better after we broke up. Of course my best friend keeps telling me that we are in a relationship even if the two of us don’t want to label it as a relationship. I don’t think he really understands the situation between us. I honestly don’t know what we are but I do know that I am really enjoying all the time I spend with him.  It doesn’t matter whether we are having dinner, going to the movies or having sex we always have a good time. Being with him is a nice break from all the stress I have in my life right now.

Consenting Adults

My ex is the first person that has ever made me feel comfortable about all my wants and desires when it comes to sex. He doesn’t judge me or make me feel ashamed because I want to try lots of things. He allows me a safe place to explore all my desires. We have these intense conversations about fantasies and other things that we would like to try on each other. We talk, spend time together and we fuck like rabbits. My best friend keeps telling me that we are in a relationship even if we aren’t willing to put a label on it. He says that if it walks like a duck and quacks like a duck than it’s a duck. I’m not sure that I would agree but I definitely enjoy what’s going on between us. I haven’t seen him in two weeks and I’m supposed to see him tomorrow night. About a month or so ago I went to a Pure Romance Party. I bought these restraints that go under the mattress. I haven’t had an opportunity to try them out yet. I finally got them put under the mattress last night. I can’t wait for my ex to come over tomorrow night so that we can try them out. He wants to blindfold me too. Just thinking about being tied up and blindfolded makes me totally hot. It always amazes me that he can turn me on so easily. He says I make him get hard and that he gets hard every time we have one of our conversations like this morning. I love that I can make him hard just by talking to him. I love that it doesn’t matter whether or not we try new things or not, we still have amazing sex. I honestly think I could spend the rest of my life having sex with this man. We are both creative when it comes to sex and we’re both open to new ideas. I love him despite the fact that we don’t have that kind of relationship anymore. I don’t know what the future will hold for us but I plan to enjoy the ride while I still can!!

Back to the Grind

Well with three weeks down I can definitely say that I am back in the routine of school again. I have been really proud of myself because despite the fact that I have to get up really early every morning, I am still getting up and walking every day. I have to say that walking every day has really helped me in all aspects of my life. I am able to start each day with a clear head and my focus has been great. So far I have been able to keep up with school and work.  I have even been successful with my home bound student. My son told me right before school started that I was a superwoman. I will probably never see myself the way my kids see me but it is nice to know that my kids think I can do anything. I just really hope I don’t ever disappoint them.

School is really crazy for me but I am working really hard trying to be successful. I have to admit taking upper level English classes is a lot more difficult than taking education classes. So far I am maintaining an A but we will see what happens. I really wish I had a better idea what my professor wants but honestly she doesn’t really give very clear instructions for things.