Exploring Myself

My ex and I broke up over 3 years ago and since then I have changed in a number of ways.  I’ve gotten additional tattoos and I even got a piercing. I have even explored my wants and desires sexually. I have discovered that there are many things I would like to experience. I guess I’m lucky in a lot of ways because my boyfriend is very open-minded about sex. He has even suggested some things to me that I hadn’t previously considered an option. At 42, I feel like maybe I should have experimented more when I was younger but I really didn’t have an opportunity. I was always in extremely restricted relationships. I haven’t really been with that many men that have been open-minded about sex. I have come to realize that I know very little about what turns me on. I have also started watching a variety of porn. I have even watched Hentai. I would never have thought that I would like anime porn but it’s actually pretty cool. I love the fact that I can talk about anything with my boyfriend. He never judges me and he usually up for anything I want to try. In some ways he has more experience than I do but in other ways I do. Our sexual chemistry is pretty intense and it hasn’t waned even after five months having sex. I don’t know if the relationship is meant to last but I know it appears to be exactly what I need to explore my own desires and needs when it comes to sex. A huge part of me hopes that we can make it work long term. I love the way he makes me feel emotionally and sexually. We have been through so much already but I still think we can grow together. I have a lot of responsibilities over the next couple of years but I think he is the type of man I can share them with. He understands what it means to be a parent and he respects the relationship I have with my kids. Life is short and my most important focus is to enjoy as much time as I can with my kids over the next four years.

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