I have noticed that there are so many people in this world that can’t be true to themselves. I will never understand why people have to be one way in private and a completely different way in public. My ex is the absolute worst about this. He always acts so happy and full of life when he’s in public but when you get him alone he’s completely different. I’m so glad that I don’t have to deal with that anymore. I’m also glad that we aren’t friends. He said we would be but I knew as soon as he said it that it wasn’t true. Real friends care about each other and he hasn’t cared about me in a very long time.
On another note I am apprehensive about the future because it is so easy for people to pretend to be one way when they are really very different. I have been sending emails with this man for over a week or so and I have found that we have a lot in common. He seems like such a nice man and I want to believe that he really is the man he appears to be but only time will tell.
I try very hard to be the real me regardless of the situation. I spent far to much time in my past worrying about pleasing other people and not myself. I know that I’m a good person and I also know that I will meet the person I am meant to be with. Maybe it’s this new guy and maybe not but I am going to continue to put myself out there because that’s the only way to live. My past is in the past and I refuse to let it impact my future. Life is far too short to live behind a facade!!