Anticipation

Have you ever been in a situation where you have thought about something so much that when it finally happens you are disappointed? So I started talking to the new guy a few weeks before I left for Spain but we have only really gotten to know each other in the last few weeks since I’ve been home. We talk every day and now we have spent time together the last two weekends. I really like him but now I’m starting to wonder whether or not he will be able to maintain my interest.  I’m worried that things changed last night.  We made love for the first time last night.  This is the first time I have been with anyone other than the ex in a really long time. It was very different than I expected and now I’m left wondering whether or not we are going to be ok.  It wasn’t bad and he is extremely loving but it honestly made me miss my ex and I don’t think I should be missing him when I’m trying to start something with someone else.  On another note, it was really nice to wake up with him this morning.  He reached over and held me while I was snoozing my alarm clock.  I don’t know, maybe I’m just confused because it is someone new.

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