I realized today that my posts have been a bit depressing the last couple of days and I’m done with that. Moving on in life is difficult but it is way past time for me to embrace it. I have so much in my life to be thankful for and I refuse to let one man take away my joy. It is definitely time to embrace life and stop living in the past. I heard the following song tonight when I was out running errands and it reaffirmed my need and desire to leave the past behind.
I have also realized that it is not just that I have to move on but I have to limit my contact with him. I can’t be friends with him no matter what. I will have to deal with him in limited doses at work and church but other than that it has to be no contact. Spain during spring break will be good for me because it will get me completely out of my normal surroundings and environment. My trip this summer should help me make the final break from the ex so that I can finally get on with my life. I may have to wait until I get back from Bolivia before I finally meet someone that I am actually ready to date but that may not be such a bad thing. The extra time will just give me more time to work on myself. The better version of myself that I can show the world, the more likely I am to meet a decent guy that I can have a real relationship with.