I realized today while I was sitting in church that I have been looking at things the wrong way. I decided to travel to Bolivia while I was sitting in church the first Sunday of the year. I remembered today that the reason I decided to volunteer in Bolivia was bout giving back and having a new lease on life. My relationship status has impacted my attitude. I let my disappointment over the paramedic impact all the other good things I have in my life. I would still like to have a boyfriend in my life that I can share things with both good and bad but I know that the most important thing in my life is my faith. I have to remember that God comes first and foremost and everything is second just like the bracelet I wear all the time. I have to remember that my life is amazing. I have these two great children that make me proud every day and a great job. I have been blessed with the ability to achieve an advanced education and the ability to buy a home for my family.
I’m still not sure that I should have asked my ex out but I have decided to put it all in God’s hands. if we are supposed to go out than God will make sure it happens. If not, than he will put additional obstacles in our way. At the very least I want to maintain my friendship with my ex because he knows me really well and he really does help me out a lot. I will eventually meet the man I am supposed to spend my life with but until then I need to be patient and leave it in God’s hands. I need to focus on the amazing things I will be able to bring into my classroom through my trip to Spain. I also need to focus on the return to the basic strategies for learning when I start teaching in Bolivia. I need to focus on what’s important in my life. I don’t need to worry about the things I am lacking. This time I have spent single over the past few months has been really good for me. Maybe God just thinks I need a little more time so that I can focus my energies on him. I felt like for the purposes of this post I would share a picture of my bracelet. i wear this all the time but I think sometimes it is still necessary to be reminded about its meaning!!!