Today I still feel sad about what happened with the paramedic. I just wish he would’ve taken the time to tell me what happened. I’ve only known him a few weeks but it still feels bad to be told that it’s over without knowing why. Life is short and I’m not going to spend a lot of time stressing about it but it does bother me a little. He seemed like such a nice guy. Could I have really been that wrong about him? Did I do something to upset him on Sunday when I left? Or was it something entirely different that has nothing to do with me?
I refuse to contact him anymore because that would just be stupid but nothing is worse in my opinion than not knowing how someone feels.
On another note I talked to my ex again today. We have only talked about work but it is nice to have a casual conversation with him. He knows me really well and it feels good to talk to him about stuff that is going on. I know that I can’t let myself get back into the same situation I was in with him before. I still love him so much but I know that we can’t be together and I deserve to be with someone that wants to be with me. I can’t keep waiting around for him to change his mind about us.