I haven’t spoken to my ex in more than three days. I saw him briefly in the hall on Monday at school but other than that I have had no contact. It’s funny because I didn’t even realize it until this morning. I knew I hadn’t talked to him but I didn’t realize it had been three days. I have been so busy with school and work that I have barely had time to think about him. I was thinking about him this morning and an old song came to mind. I decided that I would include it here.
I haven’t heard this song in so long but it completely matched my thoughts and feelings about him as I drove to school this morning. I had to download it on my new phone because I needed to hear it. He is obviously completely oblivious to how I feel about anything which honestly shouldn’t surprise me but it did. I told him Saturday night that I get it. He doesn’t feel the same way about me that I feel about him. I told him that I should quit setting myself up for disappointment. I wish things were different. I wish he would just make us a priority in his life but that is never going to happen. I should realize that from our past but I wanted to believe that I could get back what we had in the beginning of our relationship over two years ago. You can never get the past back though. I would even settle for a new beginning but that;s not really in the cards either. I’m not completely closing myself off to him because I know that truth be told I can’t. I can’t change the way he makes me feel. I can’t change the fact that I’m still completely in love with him. The one thing I can change is how I choose to deal with all of it. It has been three days and I’m fine. I finish school in less than a week. I don’t have time for him right now anyway!!!!